Trials

I have a test today.

I was discussing with my girlfriend last night my current state. How I find having to study and do homework inconvenient, but that I also have a hard time seeing myself doing anything else right now. All in all, I think that's a good sign. Really all this says is that "hard things are hard", and that what I'm doing I actually want to do. It was just an odd perspective at that moment.

This last year certainly has included a bunch of changes: New job, new city, started graduate school, girl friend, house shopping. Though with all this in mind, I'm still resolute not to be too much of an adult.

Wikileaks is all in the news right now. I have mixed opinions on the subject. I think it's important for 'journalists' to uncover scandal or corruption, but I'm not so convinced that is what this is. This doesn't appear to be much of a focused revelation about anything, so much as someone just dumping over a filing cabinet in hopes of finding something good. However, the animosity being directed as Assange doesn't seem warranted. Too many politicians are throwing around the word 'terrorist' too liberally these days and it's not like he stole the documents personally, in all likelihood the person that did could have just sent them to any of the news agencies himself.

Anywho, back to studying...

Fucking yay

So I got my first test back on Thursday and I made a 94! On top of the average being a 64! The professor went so far as to show the number of people that made grades in certain brackets and he called the group I was in the "Honour roll" and then called out our names in class, followed by, "You can beat them up later." Thanks dude. He then suggested the other students start studying with us...

So all in all pretty excited about that.

Concealed Carry

They're holding a concealed carry handgun class at work this weekend. Apparently one of the VPs is a certified instructor! So, I'm going to be getting my license this weekend.

Some of you may know that I'm an avid NPR fan. I think pretty much everything about what goes on there is great... except for the stations that play TOO much classical to fill time. I mean I like classical and all, but in my opinion that should be it's own station. Anyway, one of the shows I love is This American Life which just recently aired an episode pertaining to guns and gun ownership. It was a good episode. I suggest those on either side of the gun ownership fence listen to it. It doesn't pick sides, but it does a great job of explaining both points of view.

I have my first test tomorrow. It's been 5 years since I've taken a school test. I'm pretty nervous. I want to do so well in the course. I deeply want to validate myself in getting an A. I was always upset with my performance in school, but I never seemed able to really change much of the outcome in college. Sure I would try studying more, or different techniques, but never really produced a change. I consequently blamed myself for not having the diligence to study or work harder, never really accepting it was a lack of talent. Thus, I'm hoping that being older has changed me in some way; In some way that will reflect as better grades. That's not to say I'm just sitting idly by, certainly I'm studying and trying to do well, I just hope I'm not disappointed.

phlegm

So I've apparently pulled some unknown muscle that extends over my right rib cage. I know this because it now hurts to move, cough, or live. Awesome. I imagine this is what I get for coughing for over a week...

In other news class is going well so far. We have a test coming up next week. It already seems too soon to be having a test, but eh. I think I can handle it with no problem.

I'm trying to come up with something else to do. Right now I am considering either taking up Judo again, or perhaps fencing. Both of these sports seemingly being silly in some sense. One requires wrestling dudes on the ground, the other, prancing about.

It's supposed to be in the 60s this weekend, I'm looking forward to it.